lost

uninspired. dampened. stifled.

i am not liking the current status quo - i begin to think if this is the place for me to stay.

i want a creative mode. a creative outlet to inspire my inner imaginary out-roar.

now, i am stuck in this blurry zone.

i'm confused with this state of work..

labour

I sunk into the melancholy mood when I see my co-workers are struggling to work hard everywhere...near and far..

So many of us have fallen sick for the last couple of weeks..

And we were still at work even though we were supposed to rest..

because of accountability we couldn't let go a moment to check out mailbox (fear that we might miss an important e-mail)

because of blinded power and pride we couldn't let go a moment of being right (fear that we would be condemned if we admitted our mistakes)

what have enslaved us - high pay? power? authority? social status?

there are things larger in life...and no yardstick can measure...

light bulb

had a fulfilling 3 hours power nap this afternoon..

slept soundlessly like a log...

couldn't hear the door-bell when my aunt dropped by today...

so good that the whole week fatigue disappeared..

when i woke up...

a sudden prompting awakens me...

i'll need to slow down and think about the future...

really, in an in-depth spiritual level...

and suddenly, i miss so many people whose faces come into my mind..

life is not make up of wealth and comforts that satisfies..

life is make up of people around me...

wohoo!

ain't feeling quite good in health...lost my voice..couldn't talk long

ain't feeling quite right about work...(yeah, sick leave and i still need to attend e-mails and obliged to speak to my boss)

but i'm feeling great about him... :)

snow

today...

when he was in the train on his way to meet a customer...

and i was in the train on my way back home to attend a conference call...

he sent me this photo...

hees...can you see the snow patches at the side of the pavement?

hees...he still remember he owed me a photo showing the snow in his country...

hmm...and this makes me

:)

Horrendous

Horrendous. What an ungracious act.

Disgusted by the demeaning of human's trust.

Budding confidence behind shallow compliments.

A grain of sand - integrity withers away through the wobbly hands.