脆弱

人，有七情六欲，天然本性。

人，每日都和自己，争辩斗智。

人，努力真扎后，累了。

人，在适当的时候，可以脆弱一下。

人，放下它，好好的歇一歇吧。

Weary

It has been saddening over the last couple of weeks.

Two major disasters hit Myanmar and China; leaving many died and many homeless.

Watching the sights of the helplessness on news from the TV, Internet and newspapers has been depressing.

I saw 24-hour working non-stop rescuers extent help to seek more miracles from the rubbles; I saw people all over the world sharing the pains and doing their bit to make the tragedy a little bearable to the victims.

My eyes have been tearing lately.

But there's a fighting spirit in life; it's natural that when there's a something pulls you down, you will struggle up!

It's time to rebuild faith and so let's all picking up the pieces...bit by bit...but be brave!

诚实

曾经可以很坦然，
不伪装内心的故事，
把它写在脸上，
侧底与你分享。

我的脆弱和不安，
我的曾经和内伤，
凑成一页一页的笔记篇，
让你慢慢的翻。

后来换来的是背叛，
我的故事你不爱看，
你要的只是美感，
单纯让我输得好惨。

所以我学会伪装，
我伤心流泪不让你看，
也从不在你面前抓狂，
你看到的我永远是坚强。

可是你感觉我很遥远，
你走不进我的心房，
这距离让你很沮丧，
期待昔日的我赶紧回返。

你和我，我和你，相处，其实不难，
卸了装，放下防备，诚实，可以很简单。
若不能，看清对方，往后怎能，共欢共难，
有了你，知心陪伴，道路多难，也不会孤单。

Be me

I used to be passionately stubborn and headstrong.
Now, to accommodate to please others has become my habitual attitude.

Undesirable!

What is holding me back?
Why am I being so foolish to trade my self to gain acceptance?

Superficial!

Life is to live; dare to dream...
Why holding back?

I celebrate the passion in my life;
the stubborn way I love my life;
like an airy fairy soar up high;
even though I may not fly;
I fear not of falling from the sky;
I know it'd hurt, but I'd still try.

I want to love as much before I die;
A life with smiles, tears and lullabies;
I'd keep these memories in my mind;
and hold them close as days pass by;
Ruminating the moments in the night;
and keep my love forever mine.

I would not hide my emotions with lies;
and denied the feelings I've realised;
I promise I'd not disguise;
I 'd share every part in me in your life;
Live with zeal and grow my heart to a bigger size;
to keep all I cherish in this life.

Wait

Just when I was contemplating on the meaning of "wait"; and feeling devastating on being kept "waiting". I found the message below, and it answered to my anxieties.

"To wait open-endedly is an enormously radical attitude toward life.
So is to trust that something will happen to us that is far beyond our imaginings.
So, too, is giving up control over our future and letting God define our life, trusting that God molds us according to God's love and not according to our fear.
The spiritual life is a life in which we wait, actively present to the moment, trusting that new things will happen to us, new things that are far beyond our own imagination, fantasy, or prediction. That, indeed, is a very radical stance toward life in a world preoccupied with control."
by Fr. Henri J. M. Nouwen