New Year...New Me!

this has been a good much-deserved period for a restful break...

though i don't really like the place where i had been to a short holiday..

it was quite a good getaway from the hustle and bustle of the city..

yes! a new year is coming near...

and recently i notice a certain transformation in myself...

i bought the type of clothes which i wouldn't buy in the past...

i'm more open to challenges, and to challenge myself to try on new things...

and i also realized that i have achieved a significance growth of confidence...

and maturity to take on responsibility...

and suddenly i'm so excited about the approaching of a new year -- a new me!

新年あけましておめでとうございます...愛、喜びと健康に恵まれている!

this is my room...and i'm thinking of a revamp too...

a christmas message

i think this is it..

by doing the thing you do..the thing you just did..

you made me think of you even more..

but what am i going to do?..

you are moving back to your home town..

so far...

why?

Merry Christmas!

メリークリスマス!

そして今日私は心配知っている。

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幸せな !

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本当の愛に恵まれているかもしれないし、

新しい年の良い歓声がたくさん!

大きな心からの素朴な願い!

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butterfly

i told myself i'm going to snug into my bed early tonight..

to recuperate my mind from all the "tug of war" games...

to ease my thoughts;

to not to touch my mac...to be detached from the www...

well, i'm a vocal person, i need to voice my feelings and emotions...

so here i am...typing along

it's the time of the year again to take stock of the year...

what had, what have been, what haven't, what should be...

suddenly, i feel this year has been eventful yet fruitful...

surely there were losses i had...but i believed i had gained a lot deals too...

to close the year, i wish to see myself bloom like a butterfly as i usher in a good new year...

beautiful......i mean, being more graceful in dealing with people...

fly.....i mean, consistently flapping the little wings flying and keep going despite of adversity...

the flowers....i mean, being with people who shared beautiful thoughts, encouragements, positive outlook...

the bees and the birds....i mean, being around with friends

i may not soar high; yet i'll keep flying...never give up....

Game

Once heard some veterans said "The higher you go, the colder you turn to, and more games to play in the field"...Welcome to the party...

sad.

Once I saw a colleague pasted a caption at her work station --

--"Work ain't such a pain; its the people around who make it so..."

That's so true.

People, I don't like the game. I work for my passion. I want to work and honor my integrity and stay on my principles and faith.

But people, your nonsense made me stifled.

Power struggles. Power cravings......................NONSENSE! PLAIN INSECURITY!!!

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Saw these paintings some time back, I find the connotation behind these drawings is very clever...

Sometimes when you are being humble and be nice to people; people take things for granted..

So, sometimes, you have no choice, but to exercise your power and authority to make people listen and obey...I hate being this way...cos I believe all people should be treated with respects...

And to play the game, is to shield with a weapon; the front and the back, beware of attack from all angles...

And here is the artist's caption of his paintings...it hits on the nail...sharp.

The artworks portray a cultural behavioral pattern which is unhealthy to the mind that gradually causing the explosion of the mind--the sickness of the corporate world...

translates in layman term:

...too many voices; become noise; too much noises polluted the environment....and it sucks!

Hahaha..

如果这次是他， 就选定他。

哈哈哈。。。

会是他吗？

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get hitched

Recently I've been thinking a lot about this...

Should I get married and start my own family...

I've been very tired mentally and now the fatigue has had gotten into me physically...

I seem to lose strengths of being self-reliant...

I seem to getting weaker emotionally...

And suddenly I kinda want a shoulder to lean on...

And that's when to tie the knots got into my mind...

And having a supportive shoulder to rest on is really attractive to me at present...

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maybe I should start...

饮水思渊

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饮水思渊。。。你既然不会。。。

you're lacking grace...

you're lacking so much...

respects, integrity, confidence are depicting...