旧爱

i remember i was there during one of his lowest times.

i couldn't share much burden but i could only be there for him.

long journey car ride. late night dinner (supper).

weekend movies. sunday morning calls. weather forecast.

his sweet tender songs serenades.

his never-failed birthday calls and wishes.

so many fond memories.



now after years...

...he thinks of me when he hit another lowest time

...i think i still care

...it's ain't passion (like before)

friend, please take good care. i miss u a lil..

我希望你一切都好！


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eyes

Some people believe the eyes is the soul of our inner voice..

love you..love you not...love you...love you not..??

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u ain't sure..so do i..

true love is worth waiting..

why the rush?

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look deeply into my eyes

goodbye

up till now my resignation still has not officially accepted by the management..

i don't know what to say about this, my mind is kinda made up to go, but what my current boss is doing to retain me somehow put me on a spot..

i don't see myself that important; and i don't see why he should go to that extra miles to try..

it made me feel worst that somehow to craft out an "attractive" package for me, some of my fellow colleagues have to short-change their roles to fit in..

i kinda feel guilty (which i don't really need to); or rather burdened by this..

i don't wish to create such emotional baggage behind before i leave..i want everyone to be happy..

not many people know i'll be leaving the company, i hope i won't make anyone sad..

to visualise on the set of me bidding goodbye to everyone kinda frighten me..

i don't wish to see the sad faces, i don't wish to hear mushy words..(cause' they make me can't bear to leave)

and i don't know how to break the news to the housekeeping uncle (i saw him shed tears a few times when my previous colleagues left)..

oh man, such emotional dramas..how to avoid to entangle in such don't-know-what-to-do situations?

goodbye ain't easy..but somehow..sometimes..something..some people..some circumstances..entails a change of path..to move on to somewhere..some place...to pursue some dreams..

goodbye ain't the end, it could be a beginning of a deeper bond..

hope everyone has the strength to let go a yearning which ain't gonna stay..


屋顶的天空是我们的
放学後夕阳
也都会是我们的

不会再仰慕更多了
唱一首属於我们的歌
让我们的伤
都慢慢慢的癒合
明天我又会是全新的

青春是手牵手坐上了
都不回头的火车
总有一天我们都老了
不会遗憾就OK了

伤心的都忘记了
只记得这首笑忘歌
那一年天空很高风很清澈
从头到脚趾都快乐

我和你都约好了
要再唱这首笑忘歌
这一生只愿只要平凡快乐
谁说这样不伟大呢

自己和自己打一架了
想都想不通
反正就是这样了
不会再流泪更多了

有多少错误重蹈覆辙
有多少苦痛
还不是都过来了
想起来甚至还会笑呢

青春是人生的实验课
错也错得很值得
就算某天唱起这首歌
眼眶会有一点湿了

伤心的都忘记了
只记得这首笑忘歌
那一年天空很高风很清澈
从头到脚趾都快乐

我和你都约好了
要再唱这首笑忘歌
这一生只愿只要平凡快乐
谁说这样不伟大呢

伤心的都忘记了
只记得这首笑忘歌
那一年天空很高风很清澈
从头到脚趾都快乐

我和你都约好了
要再唱这首笑忘歌
这一生只愿只要平凡快乐
谁说这样不伟大呢
这一生只愿只要平凡快乐
谁说这样不伟大呢
谁说这样不伟大呢 ！

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face *edited*

A face is...

The frontier represents a progression of emotion. The face is the portrait of an identity, it is also a value or standing that lies in the eyes of others.

Sometimes, we are so caught up by how our faces are being portray to others that we can be so self-indulged in showing the best but to fail to properly see the faces of others.

We may have only one face, but living in the community, we are many facets that form a human family. While you strive to put on a well-received face (as you may think it is), bear in mind that a face you do not approve of, may be the face that belongs to you ultimately.

A gem shines in all dimensional angles. A face gyrate around faces produced many facets; each facet translates our emotion, our feeling and our human being.

The irony is…

If a face is a fabricated facade to hide the vulnerable self, then a face is not a face, but a wall eventually…

...and you can name this wall Ego-istic

为何怕被驻立在比自己优秀的人的旁边？

有这必要用哪么多的藉口去掩饰你的小小的缺点吗？

何以要躲过每每有机会讨论或赞赏别人的话题？

对你的肯定，难道真的只能以虚构的华丽视面，肉麻的声音，敷衍带过？

被骄傲遮盖的原来是 -- 自卑。

deep thoughts...

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MC'ing

instructed by doc to stay home from today onwards 3 days to rest at home..

kinda begged the doc...LOL... to allow me to bring my laptop home so that i can still manage some works at home..

am i really that ill??!!

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setsail

Given some thoughts:

>> dream -- embark on a new career, new challenge, most importantly doing something I love!

>> travel -- I should take the opportunity to open my horizon, so much to see, so much to learn!

>> personal life -- by the end of this year, i should consider if i am ready to cnotte, seriously!

follow the heart..

setsail. takes off.


(gotta settle 2 things quickly once i step in to the office tomorrow morning..get it done, once and for all..)

Rest Well

I think this is the second time that I got so ill in my life. The sickness linger on me for so long. It's scary to develop a fever especially the temperature can get very high in the middle of the night. Don't like the feeling of muscle ache, nausea and chill... When my dad passed away some years back, I also had the same thing for a couple of week..

It could be I am under stress lately. I think I am exhausted. With so many things that happened suddenly which demand my attention, I feel being stretched in different dimensions. I feel tired.

So, pardon me if I need to drop anything for the time being.. I need to properly rest and prioritise the stuff that is happening in my life right now..


I like this gift which I wrapped; I like the combination of the print and the ribbon.
But it is not given out as yet; I need to settle this quickly..

暂时放下。心情和心灵也该放个假。

休息一下下。

fever friday

i'm down with fever and flu again.

:*(

wooOO..

It's happening just so abruptly.

I have an opportunity to embark on a Bigger and Regional role at work elsewhere.

I'm flattered; it's always feel good to have someone who have had worked with me before recommends me to take on a higher challenging role.


Let's see if this works out.
If so, which means I'll be travelling frequently;
having a heavier responsibility and accountability;
and perhaps a more challenging role..

I told a close friend about this impromptu offer;
and she said: "Hey girl, don't you think you are ready for a BIGGER role?"


Wow! I'm flattered!

it's flattering;
it's flattering;
it's so flattering!

And I'm still having a bad cough! Argghhh...

heehee hees... hoho hooo..... haha haaahaa...

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insomnia

oh man!

i got so disturbed by the whole wasted morning that I keep thinking about it and I COULDN'T GET TO SLEEP NOW!

Gonna get it settled quickly and move on!

Arghh!

bits & pieces

8 September 2009 Morning!

I got the whole morning wasted; I'm still figuring out why I was so caught up by these bits and pieces chores which they are NOT my duties. To focus on my works was so hard when impromptu things disturbed my attention largely....yeah the whole morning...

I've got my whole morning spent in doing somebody else job... I'm not being calculative...but ain't you people said that my role is important in contributing to the company's revenue? But why load these unnecessary obligations on me and take me away from my actual role?

Well, the answer is selfishness...


A N G R Y!

de facto

at some circumstances, certain actions, thoughts and behaviors which don't fall within the expected spectrum, they are being seen as unacceptable or unwelcome. this is normally being perceived by the one who set the expectations (rules)..

hmm...well, he is not wrong to desire what he wants...

similarly, at some circumstances, certain actions, thoughts and behaviors which are being expressed in some unconventional (silent) gestures, which he might see as shallow, however, she begs to differ..

hmm..she just need to be understood...

why made judgement based on the de facto standard?

the statement you made ain't fair..plainly subjective and merely an emotional challenge..


与其在你面前, 我无法表现得于你所期望看到的热情，

我不如默默的，在远处给你我诚意的祝福，每分每秒帮你打气。

这些，原来你不想要。

it hurt me..
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forgive me...

hmmm...

apologies...

i'm still ain't sure of my feelings...


when i got it sorted out...

i'll give my best...